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  • Buenas Noches

    I missed yesterday but im back today. I had a solid day today. Just relaxing and laying around. Nothing too much going on at the moment, but im content and happy.

    I have been having really good conversations with Ms. S. Its nice to have really deep and thought provocative conversations with someone and they operate on a similar brainwave as me.

    This one is short but sweet. and I have to conquer my diet. 100%

    Trading was decent Friday. Lost one trade and won 2. We’re up on the week so thats a blessing. Next week comes the real test. but we got this.

    I love you

  • Bonjour!

    We’re really making great headway lately with consistency. I don’t have much to report. Just happy.

    I need to hit these trading numbers the next 2 weeks and I’ll be good. To god be the glory.

    And if you’re reading this, it’s a blessing because you still have a chance to do whatever your heart desires….. even if today that’s just doing nothing.

    I love you.

  • Wassup!

    Today was also a good day. And we’re at a 6 day streak on here! I really feel like I’m coming into my own and not feels great.

    Today I was hooping. Got fouled a lot but a solid day. And I got hella shots up after and did well. I’m pretty sure my shot is com in g back full force. And I’m pleased. Nothing like just hitting jumpers in a gym. Filled or empty.

    Trading kinda pissed me off. I should have held a trade that followed my rules yesterday. I sold and then it took off today for a nice chunk of change. I have to have faith in myself. 3 more trades. The past is the past. Nothing more or less. Lock in. You got this.

    I been talking to S lately. She is a super dope person and we’re starting to have some pretty deep, thought provoking conversations. That’s really all a nigga wants. To be able to think and understand how others think. And grow mentally. It could all be so simple. But I’m grateful for all that. 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

    See you tomorrow.

    I love you.

    Oh and shoutout to Mrs. Jackson. She was the realest teacher of all time.

  • Im on fire. I can feel it.

    I’ve officially arrived. Thank God.

    Today I hit a breakthrough. I was cleaning up in the kitchen (arguing with myself about if I really like results or praise). When it dawned on me. Everything is looking up in my life. My trading couldn’t be clearer, my patience is at an all time high. My mind is clear, my emotions are better. Im maturing, having difficult conversations sooner with myself and others. I haven’t had sex in 3 months and change (a positive). My bank account is healthier than it’s been in years (still much work to do). My clothes are near an all time high ( I don’t really need much). Im as confident as ever, and the world is looking smaller and smaller. I pray more than I have in a long time and im very grateful on a day to day basis. Im genuinely happy. So what’s the next step?

    MY DIET!!!!! OHHHHHHHH HOW COULDN’T I SEE IT!!!!!!!!!

    Keeping me from greatness. Killing my drive and my body. Creating health issues. Fogging my mind. and whatever else negative thing you can think of.

    I realized (at least to me) there is being rich, and being wealthy. The main difference to me? All wealthy people look different. They all have that super clean skin and are usually in good shape. Why? because of what they eat. Ive been missing one of the main pillars all along. My mf’in diet. The day I can control my diet, is the day I get the keys to the castle. What you eat is as important as what you consume mentally. The root of my impulsiveness is my mf diet. All problems originate in the gut, including mental.

    I gotta do better. I will do better.

    I understand and now im on it. No more issues, just solutions. I already started today with my first meal. Not only was it healthy, it was a small portion. I don’t need to eat substantial sizes anymore.

    Im excited. The next chapter starts now.

    I love you x5

  • Death and all His friends

    I’m headed to visit this guy that’s in hospice right now (obviously I’m not driving). It has my mind thinking about my legacy and what God will remember me for doing. Currently it’s not that hot a memory so let’s change that.

    Trading has been decent today. I was all over the place and still being scary. I’m glad I did that on the topstep and not Webull. But regardless set a SL in profit and let the good times roll. You got this.

    Sweets. Sweets. Sweets. I have to curb my appetite this week. I want a flat stomach by the time I leave again in late Feb or early march. Hold the line for a month and a half. That’s it. Life will be complete different. Looking forward to the update.

    And so I’m on another writing streak. Which I’m proud of. Becoming more consistent in the different walks in my life. And I ran for a little bit this morning. I’m going to start running at least 2x a week for cardio. Start with a mile or 2 and then increase. Little by little. You got this.

    Deleted hinge today. I be lusting wayyyyy too fucking much. That shit has to die too. At least for the guy I want to show up, to show up. If you must, at least get in a relationship first and just live in her lol. Ce la vie. it’s time for you to be a husband and no a ho anymore. Shits played out.

    Life has really looked up amazing since last summer. Ima get another boost like that one, this summer. 10x type shit.

    Enjoy every day. Pay attention to the little things. Take no credit for the big things.

    Lead by example. Word is bond.

    I love you.

  • Hola? Como Estas??

    Today has been a good day. I ended up doing a little cardio, going grocery shopping, did laundry, studied a little, and watched some football games.

    I’m really nervous but excited about this week. I can’t wait to see how the market is and more importantly, how I do. It will be a fun week of updates on here, thats for sure.

    Ive been having some really good conversations lately. Im happy where my head is at currently but I need to keep improving. Im so close to a major breakout, I just have to keep shit together for 2 weeks.

    Life is good.

    All glory to God.

    I love you

  • HEY!

    Not a lot of juice today but I want to stay consistent. I had a good day. I was hooping, and then I have been studying and making sure im all ready for next week. I feel like this is the beginning of a new era. Im excited, proud and happy. I just need to do the work this week and takeoff.

    Also, thank God for everything. I haven’t gotten to Him like I should but He has looked out regardless and im thankful. Thank you Lord. you are far better to me than I deserve and I am not as concise as I should be, but I am eternally indebted and grateful.

    Everyday is a new day to be great.

    I love you

  • Day 2

    Ok im up and have completed a couple of tasks. This is really therapeutic, this writing and listening to music. I ran 3.6 miles this morning and then walked the rest as a cooldown till i hit 4 miles on the dot. My body held up well and i believe that’s the longest that i’ve run without stopping for quite some time. Skinny fat. It felt really good though and i was pleased with how i responded to my body feeling good. I have to keep reminding myself thats its only me vs me. Nobody else, no other contestants. With that being said, im happy with my output today thus far.

    I showered and ate a good breakfast, (fruit, eggs, avocado and a hashbrown). Took a look at the markets and saw that not only was i right last week about the market’s direction and what i should play, the market exceeded my expectations. When im tired of giving myself the short end of the stick i will change. No better yet, I AM changed. Who i was yesterday with those goofy and bad trades are not a reflection of who i am TODAY. And my trades going forward will reflect that as well. Nuff said. I don’t want to leave anymore money on the table that God has provided for me. It’s disrespectful to Him to have all these talents and to not only not succeed, but not even put forth a good effort. I’ve honestly been coasting most of my life, off the talents and gifts ive had from God that’s put me at an advantage over the average person. The joke is that because I have above average talents, i have to be working extremely below average to be in the position im in. Imagine that. I just realized how shitty i have to be to still be losing a 100-meter race with a 50-meter head start. Only God and his mercy has helped me reach this point, because i deserve none of this. But we’re working now so the past is just that.

    I just started breaking down the book (The way of the superior man), chapter by chapter and taking notes. I feel really good about the way im intentionally trying to improve. I really appreciate the new and improved dopamine we’ve been actively seeking. Good job ____, Youve been doing great lately and i hope you keep it up. Im really enjoying this blog though. It’s like my secret pen pal. No judgment no worries, just a place where i can vent and get my issues out and in the air. A mental breathing exercise, if you will.

    Today is going by pretty fast as well. It’s amazing how much you can get done before the middle of the day if you wake up and just get to it. I’ve known and experienced it before but clearly have lost sight of it over the last couple of years. Im slowly finding my groove again.

    The rest of my day will be swift. I’m GOING to finish 30 pages of the book with detailed notes, start bible study from the beginning (Genesis 1), Hit an AB workout (I always do one from Pamela Reif. Lately I’ve been doing the lower abs for beginners one.), spend some time with my momma, fold my laundry and study the stock market for tomorrow. Im excited to see how i feel by the end of the day!

    You got this!

    Also, Drink More Water!!!

  • What is my problem?

    Good morning world,

    I’m just waking up this morning. So quick story, I don’t want to be successful subconsciously. I’ll explain. So I started trading stocks/forex about 4 years ago. At this point I know exactly what I’m doing and pretty accurate about how the market moves, but I keep fucking up because I can’t control my emotions. It really is a sickness.

    So I’ve planned out these next 2 weeks trading to a T. And surprise surprise, the market is doing exactly what I anticipated. But guess who didn’t take the plays and actually took a couple plays in the opposite direction. You guessed it, this guy. I’m so frustrated with myself at this point. I also am just coming to the realization that my current girlfriend is a perfect mirror of who I really am. A bad person that thinks they’re good. I make excuses for a lot of things and write off a lot of what I do to depression and not a lot of shit gets done. I’ve also told my parents for the better part of two years I get trading, and I’ll change their lives and nothing has changed. The boy who cried wolf. WOW. I’m not shit either. I mean I knew that but when you really dig, shits ugly as fuck. We’re working on it though. So I’m up at 6 a.m. trying to find something, anything to rearrange the current trajectory of my life.

    I honestly don’t know what to do. I have to psychologically win this war. My life and my soul depends on it. I just have to keep looking for ways to mentally win. Maybe a reward system that diminishes over time. Or it could stay the same if it’s working. You don’t always get things for doing what you’re supposed to do but I can always give myself something. Even if it’s only words. Idk. I’ll make that my priority today.

    I need to lose this girlfriend too. I made a promise that I would try my best with her for 45 days, but honestly, this shit is exhausting dealing with someone that clearly doesn’t want you. I guess it’s partially karma. Enough about her though.

    So today I think I’m going to do a home workout, (cardio day is Wednesday/Saturday, so I’ll most likely just get on the treadmill). I’ll stretch and hop on the computer. Track the market a bit, smoke and journal. Then dive into the book again, this time taking notes and applying it personally to my life. I’ll break it up into sections of 30. Then I need to see if the market has any offerings for me today and in the afternoon, I’ll try and do something with my momma and relax. I need to eat better too. I’m slick skinny fat. I have a gut that I’ve been sucking in for years. Doesn’t everyone though? No? Just me? Ok.

    Wish me luck on a productive day! And to my wife, I miss you and I’m sorry I’m taking so long, but it’ll be worth it I promise.

    Oh and the 45 days with cruella ends march 4.

    Xoxo

  • I think I’m love bombing myself!

    Pretty straightforward. So this year I’ve talked to 3 women. The first was a very sweet childhood friend of mine. Shes kind, caring and thoughtful. Incredibly beautiful and on paper, should be everything that I want in a woman. It just doesn’t click for us, and I guess that’s my fault. She ended up cutting me off (deservedly so) after years of stringing her along. That led me to do a deep pussyless dive into how i was treating women and how, at my big age, I’m too old to not have my shit together. So we ended up going our separate ways.

    Contestant #2 for 2024 was a career minded very successful woman. She made more money than me, but it didn’t bother me because I could still pay for everything we wanted to do and did comfortably. She wanted to take roots in Atlanta, and I wanted to travel the world and wander for a bit. We had been talking off and on over the course of a couple years but nothing serious till the summertime. That summertime love. Maybe it’s the heat, or the sun, but I always find some form of love when the sun is out. We went on a couple of dates, got a high-rise hotel for a weekend, that was very dope. Cooked for each other as well. Me a basic breakfast (eggs, potatoes, fruit bowl). She ended up cooking a wonderful salmon meal. Thats another thing that’s on my list this year, leveling up my cooking. I need to be in somebody’s class or something. But yeah. Sex was amazing. Lots of impromptu things and I really enjoyed picking her brain. Extremely intelligent as well. We ended up not working because she knew I was leaving and pulled an ultimatum. Fuck. I really did care for her too, but I guess it was for the best because that’s the only way we would both get what we want.

    I’ll be right back, I have to get a pillow for my bad ass back (another days story).

    ok. Im back.

    Contestant #3. (current situation) So there I was minding my business in late October. On a hike and I met a girl. She is a veteran like me. We joke and laugh and click immediately. I’m happy, temporarily. Well it’s kinda my fault. I’ll explain. When I first met her I ended up getting her information a week later. Anyways, she ended up going out on 2 dates with me in the same week, which is pretty rare for me. I haven’t done that in years, literally. So anyways, we go on the dates, things go well, a little too well because I’m telling her I love her like a week later, and she’s saying it to. and as I’m typing this I’m realizing that I’m indeed love bombing myself. So anyways, I start going over her place. At first for a day. After that for days, very week. Not only that but we’re talking about getting married, and matching tattoos. LMAO, the shame as I’m typing this. SO now we’re fighting. Like all the fucking time. Like I’m back in high school frustration. For what, not a damn thing. So I tried to break up a couple times and it hasn’t worked yet because I’m weird about wanting to leave but not before i get tired of lusting after them. Shit’s hella uncool and weird. I’m going to address that internally immediately. I been correcting all these grammatical errors like small i’s like a lil dweeb. back to the story. so then i get my hands on this book, called The way of the Superior man by David dieda. Life changing stuff. So basically now im in a win win situation. If i do all these things for this woman and she plays me or im not happy, its great practice for my wife to be, wherever she is. If not and SHE is my wife, then i’ll have great patience and be able to take on anything. So i consider it a win win.

    I’m actually really enjoying getting my thoughts out like this. I think this is going to become a regular thing for me, even if it isnt much. Like Julie Julia. She ended up having a whole movie written about her. (theyy aint fenna write a story about you nigga).

    Life is looking up. I just have to consistently stay out my way. This will be a big time in my life if I do it right, God willing. See you at the top!

    Lee – Full Album Lofi Type Beat is what I’m listening to while I’m typing this. Catch a vibe